Title: God of Yes and No!
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?? It seems that people can only find a way to live when they are in a corner. It is only when you are in a predicament that you realize that the things you have tried to live will eventually die. In the old days, the God who always had a blue light whenever he sent a signal is now continuously red. Jacob, who was left alone (verse 24), returned to his original form 20 years ago, and finally saw himself. The things I was wearing, the things I forgot, the things I avoided, and the shameful things broke out from underneath. And all of this in one word. Bless me, otherwise I will die.
Bless me before this night is over, or I will die. This cry has made a great history. It is the moment when God's blessings cover human helplessness. This is the moment when prayers are answered. It was a great cry for life at the crossroads of death and life. Bless me, otherwise I will not let you go. With this cry, Jacob is born again. I began to realize how self-centered and how comfortable I was with God. What made Jacob sad was his lamentation at himself that he had only come this far. I've been living with God for as long as possible until now, and yes, that's all it was in the end! Be with me, keep me, feed me, clothe me, comfort me, and I will make you my God, I will pay tithes, and I will build a temple to serve you...how wretched you have made God. It was really pathetic when I thought about it. How one-sided, selfish, and disrespectful was this transaction? So Jacob cried out to God.
Bless me or I won't let you go
With this one cry, Jacob began to humble himself. Pride is gone. I know human incompetence. Now, not the blessing of living in the world, but the true blessing of living forever. Now, O God, give me strength to overcome death, and bless me indeed...