Title: Pay My Debt
It was so beautiful to see the autumn leaves fluttering in the wind. After letting the tree grow and bear fruit for a year, whenever I see the fallen leaves lying on the street to become a handful of manure without any regrets, I think that the fallen leaves are truly beautiful. They give everything, but they give freely, and do not reveal or show contempt for themselves. I also want to emulate a life like this kind of fallen leaves.
It has been nearly 10 years since I have struggled with children whose families have been dismantled due to severe domestic violence or oppression. One day nine years ago, I met children sleeping on the street in the cold winter to escape the violence of their alcoholic father. It was the opportunity to open the door to our house and live together because we could not ignore these children and there were no other measures. I didn't know it then, but later I realized that the Lord had sent these children to me.
If you look at today's text, the man who owed ten thousand talents begged the king to forgive his debt and bullied the man who owed him only a hundred denarii. , because you begged me, I forgave you a lot of debt. If that is the case, then you should have shown mercy as I did."
Why do we call it a ruthless servant?
Because they forgot the grace they received. There is a saying that people don't know when they were tadpoles, but these people are often called ungrateful and ungrateful people. He is a person who has received so much grace from God and those around him, yet forgets it. We humans change when we go to the bathroom and after we go. In that respect, we humans, both you and me, have a resemblance to a ruthless species. When I look at the process of growing up, I too grew up with the help of many people including my parents and the grace of God. However, this is often forgotten. In fact, you can't always remember, can you? However, there is a problem with forgetting what is received and remembering only what is received. Since we have forgotten the grace we have received, we have no reason to forgive and we cannot forgive our debts to others. However, just as the dust shines like the moon when it rises up in the sky, when you know the grace you have received, your heart belongs to Christ.
Before I lived with children, I thought of myself as a tolerant person. But working with the children, I realized how selfish, impatient, and petty I am.
A group home is a place like Ginkgogol Woori, which allows children to lead a normal life through an environment similar to that of a home. Therefore, there is no commuting to a group home. It is not easy to get along with children who have suffered a lot from home, society and school 24 hours a day. It can be said that it is to bear the cross that the parents threw away, and to pay off debts that the parents did not pay, even with interest. Now, my house in Ginkgogol is stable, but when I first lived with my children, theft was extreme, and there were even children who sneaked into my bedroom while I was sleeping and did everything they could find. Can this happen as a family? It's a surprise attack, not a terrorist attack.
That's why even now, like Saudi royals, they keep their money under the mattress. Is this a counter-terrorism measure? Surely better than Bush, who sacrificed so many civilians to catch bin Laden, right? Do any of you here sleep with money right now? There are probably not many rich people like me. To avoid giving children a chance to steal. If you live with your children like this, you have no choice but to reveal everything about yourself.
One day, when I came home at 2 am, I noticed that there was a pile of dishes to wash, so I was a little annoyed while washing the dishes. You don't even wash the dishes and stack them up like this? I can't even sleep in the middle of the night, what the hell is this? I thought. I was angry and tried to wake the children up to wash the dishes, but I couldn't wake the sleepy children. Then I could see myself grumbling about something like washing the dishes. I'm annoyed by my children, but how many times has the Lord been chasing after me? It's not the first time the Lord has forgiven me, but aren't you really angry over trivial things? What I did for the children was nothing compared to the blood that the Lord shed to save me. The ruthless servant was me, not the children.
Living with children like this, I realized how self-centered I was, how weak I was, and how evil I was.
Where do I look evil? Do you look ruthless?
However, if we forget not the appearance but the grace of the Lord who forgave me from my debt, if we forget that the Lord is alive and loves us, we will inevitably become evil people shouting ?쏱ay my debt??
The greatest grace I have received while living with my children is that the Lord, who forgave me from my debt, loves me unconditionally. What greater grace is there than this? Can I hold my breath for a moment as long as I'm worried? But how can we tell others to pay off our debts?
This year has been particularly difficult due to a number of things. I also wondered if I had someone to take good care of the children for me. But isn't that avoiding the cross entrusted to me? When I thought about it, I could see the figure of Jonah from within.
Jesus died for my sins, and when I think of the grace of the Lord who saved me, I felt that I was fighting. Since it is the way to repay the debt from the Lord, how easy and enjoyable will it be? When you realize the grace of the Lord in repaying your debt to the Lord, you will be refreshed.
I firmly believe that the way to always realize and feel the grace of the Lord, who forgave us our debt, is the way to always be renewed in our lives, the new way to create a more just society and save the world. I pray that the grace and love of the living Lord who forgave us our debt will be full of grace and love to the brothers and sisters of Saegil Church, who are going on a new path.