Title Day. 34 Thinking like a servant
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People seem to really like to rate. Everyone is interested in what kind of work they have done and what kind of life they are living, and they talk about it with their close friends or themselves. It's good or bad to make your own evaluation. In a world where everything is judged by the results and abilities that are revealed, it may feel natural.
As I get used to my life, both at home and at school, for competition and approval from others, I constantly compare myself to others, and find that I don't care and don't want to do things that other people don' t do. Before doing something, I first calculate with my head, and when I do that, I unconsciously think about the reactions of people around me rather than God.
A true servant of the master does not care what the other servants say and whether they admit it or not. As long as the master wants me to do what he wants me to do, there is no problem. Simply put, you only need to look good to the owner. I must not complain at the master's command that other servants do less work than I do, or do tedious and dirty work that other servants do not. The moment he starts complaining and makes excuses and laziness.. The moment he compares himself to other species, he no longer forgets the status of a pure servant and tries to exalt himself. All possessions, choices, and life of a servant depend entirely on the master. Judgment and payment are rights that belong to the master, and slaves have never been given such a right, and I don't think it should be.
It is not our job to evaluate the Master's other servants
If you really have the mindset of a servant, you should enjoy the services that Jesus told his disciples to do. You should not be ashamed of your weaknesses, let them be as they are, let God use them, and be free from your self-esteem, other people's gaze, approval, and insults.
But I still can't live like that. I am constantly trapped in the world around me, unable to overcome the entanglements, and living day by day struggling in the wheel. The fear inside of me that I don't know what kind of source I have to do it.. I feel like I'm going to be a fool if I don't do what others are doing...
My other feelings strongly conflict with each other when I try to do things that others don't do, that don't seem like income and no calculations.
I have to admit that I do not have the strength to overcome and overcome these things. Because I am a human being.. I know all too well my weakness that I cannot do anything without God's permission. But I'm too afraid to reveal it and show my honest self. It's a pity that I can't throw it away even though I know that disguising myself as if nothing's wrong with me as if I have no weaknesses is of no benefit. I want to practice giving myself more to the Lord. little by little.
Lord! Dissolve the defense mechanisms to hide the fear and anxiety that fills my heart during this day too, and let me live a life that lives in the true joy of the Lord..