Title Day25 - Changes by Problems
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All the problems that are painful and I want to avoid come into my life every day without exception, always. They try to avoid these problems as much as possible, and in some cases, they neglect the problems and focus on something completely different. However, the problems that I thought would be solved if I left them alone made me live a false life instead of an honest life as time went on, and instead of comfort, it gave me discomfort.
The problematic situation I have the most trouble with is when I spend time alone. Before entering elementary school, when I was young, I lived at my grandfather's house, so I couldn't live with my parents, and even after I went to elementary school, my parents all went to work and came home late, so I was always alone. So, when you are alone, you unconsciously feel a vague sense of fear and insecurity, and you keep looking at everything around you in a negative way. To solve this loneliness, I met friends and contacted them, but again, the loneliness was not resolved. There was no peace of mind. The heartbreaking joy was gone from my heart. At the same time, my thoughts were that there is a limit, although there is a difference, in the ability of one lacking person to fill the emptiness of another lacking person. Whether it's a relationship between a parent and a child, a relationship between a lover, or a relationship between close friends, even if it's a relationship that you feel is invaluable because it's close.
I believe that God's original plan for us is good. No, I don't think it's possible to believe that. Because each of us is obviously a flawed person, so rather than building up and blessing each other, we envy and hate each other and, frankly, most of the time we are indifferent to each other. Because there is no love for each other, I think that we are living alone with the rest of the world in despair. So Paul's consolation caught my eye. It's Romans 1:9. 'We thought that we ourselves were condemned to death, so that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead.' God wanted us to live a life of mature love where we love and build each other up, but our original purpose in life was not fulfilled because we lived a childish life that only loved ourselves.
In all circumstances - when I am happy, when I am lonely, when I am sad, when I can't see hope, when I feel frustrated, when I am afraid, when I can't do this or that - I want to give thanks to God and live a life of joy. I want to be held by God and fully dwell in His arms. There were many times when I left God and lived my life according to my own desires without loving others. But the problem was never solved, and on the contrary, more sadness and loss inevitably followed me. Also, I don't want to be easily defeated by the problems of my life. It could be anything. I don't want to give up on studying, finding a vision, preparing for the future meticulously, loving and respecting my parents, and loving the blue waves that make up the church more. No, I want to thank God for allowing me to deal with these problems I have, and I want to fully rely and trust in His good plan. So I want to grow every day.
I pray that more love will overflow in Jesus Village. We are certainly walking towards death even now, but it seems that we lack compassion for each other. Or maybe it's because I have a feeling like that, but I'm not good at expressing it, so I don't know.
Love it. Hope to resemble the character of Jesus, shalom~