Title Day39 - Balancing your life
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Just as it is important to keep a balance in whatever you do, it is important to practice the purposes God has given you (worship, fellowship, training, service, evangelism), but not to be biased. Neither of these should be neglected, for in my case there are clearly some goals that I prefer, while others are far from my life. Up to now, relatively much time has been spent in worship, training, and fellowship. Because I felt it was more valuable. As a result, I was too indifferent to learning and practicing the attitude of service and sharing the word of God with others.
I'm not honest and I have a very false habit of blaming others when things go wrong. I often think that I want to renounce my responsibilities while pretending that I have been wandering around without finding my own career right now, and that the reason I have not been able to share the blessed word of God with others is because I have lived to meet the expectations of those around me. Rather, let's be honest. I didn't have a strong desire to live up to the expectations of the people around me, and that doesn't mean I didn't think seriously about deciding the direction of my life before me. It was true that I was indifferent to the fact that the time I was given every day was not given for free, but was given to plan and work hard and live my life through sweat.
I have two loving parents. Whenever my parents see me, they teach me with these words. 'Like a flower in a greenhouse, you don't know what suffering is and are insensitive to the harshness of reality. It's definitely my fault to let my parents hear these worrying voices anymore. It will be sad for my parents to have to say things like this to me, who has gone to the military and is looking forward to graduating next year. Although I have heard this from my parents countless times, I have reacted bluntly until now, but I feel pity for how frustrated my parents must have been.
I guess I'll have to admit that I've been using my time wrong. It's because I didn't live with a balanced purpose, but only lived according to the goals I liked. In the first semester, starting anew with a sense of responsibility, I try to check what talents I have received from God and how I can serve others with them. So that I don't have any regrets that I couldn't do it because I put it off any longer. Also, although I may not be able to deliver the wonderful news of the gospel to everyone at Ajou University, I must at least tell the people around me. Because this job is not an option, it is a duty and a right that gives me joy as I live each day with great blessings.
Just as it is difficult to always strive for perfection and do everything well, it will not be easy to fulfill all of God's purposes at the same time. However, I want to believe that if I can regain the center of my desire to serve and spread the gospel, which I have treated poorly, I will be moving forward little by little towards a perfect life.
It is not easy and painful to honestly admit the parts of my life that are lacking, but I hope that God will strengthen me more through this act. 'Only he knows the way I go, and after he has tested me I will come forth as gold.' Job 23:10 Yes. Even if you are having trouble balancing your life, be patient. In the midst of this, God will prepare me more. for all the work I'm going to do.