Title Day 14. When God Feels Far Away
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.No matter how I feel, God is real.
There are certainly times when God feels far away.
I didn't know it well when I was young, when I thoughtlessly followed my mother, found friends, and habitually did not go to church, but the more my faith and faith grew, the more I experienced God, the more I had a desire to live according to the Word or my own standards. There are certainly times when God feels far away. Obviously, often, there were times when I couldn't concentrate even when I prayed, so I felt like I was memorizing a mantra, when I looked at the Word, I couldn't find it, and even during the worship service, I had other thoughts. In some cases, it was a very refreshing moment, but in other cases, it was a serious challenge that dragged me into very painful anxieties.
I used to ripped off my head and beat my breasts, crying out to God, what sin had made me like this, and why did you forsake me? Things I thought were insignificant were often considered a huge sin, and I used to blame myself for being the chief of criminals. After some time, as a result of tremendous penance and repentance, or as a result of an unexpected realization, such a time of suffering would pass, but sometimes I wondered how God made me suffer so much. Even if they commit the same sin, sometimes they kindly encourage them to say it's okay, and sometimes they seem to take a sin that they didn't even think about, even if it doesn't seem like a big deal.
There will certainly be times when God feels far away, not only for me but also for anyone who is a Christian who desires close fellowship with God. Perhaps people are afraid of the lack of a dry soul, so they control themselves more strictly, reading the Bible, praying, attending worship services, donating money, and giving alms. In fact, I can't even say that I don't have such a heart.
I thought of two things today.
The first is that trying to live hard because you are afraid of experiencing a dry time is the wrong thing to do. To fear sin because Jesus has already solved the problem of sin, and to think that God hides His face because of sin, is deceiving the cross of Christ. I have to have faith that God, who has already forgiven and forgiven all my sins, will not forsake me or rebuke me for one or two trivial sins. That is grace, for it is the guarantee of my salvation.
Another thing is that you have to work hard and live a holy life.
To not fear sin is, in a sense, not to fear God. Because I am a prince, the fact that I am not afraid to roll around in the sewer is only a ridiculous arrogance that only an ignorant prince can have. If you are a prince, you should live with dignity and dignity like a prince. Also, even if the king tests you with a difficult problem, you must solve it with confidence. As long as he is foolish, it will only become a concern for the king as an immature prince.
God loves me, but He loves me to the end, He enjoys talking to me, and He has promised me many times that He will neither leave nor forsake me. He has already said that he will train me, ask me to be more holy, and use me. Do not be afraid and look to God in the truth every day.