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Of course, when I attend lectures, I try to be honest with the students in my own way. But from that day on, "What does it mean to say that it is knowing without action, or 'doing'? And does all I have to do to end with just telling the truth?" And painful questions followed, and I thought. "Yeah, let's look into me thoroughly."
I have long forgotten myself. I lived my life thinking of the visible me, the disguised me, and the pretentious me as 'I'. I lived comfortably. Even when I prayed, I was happy because I was immersed in that peace and that love while repeating “The peace of the Lord! The love of the Lord!” in my heart. "Why am I so happy?" to the point of feeling sorry for the people around me. while saying When you look at the unfortunate people around you, you ask, "Why can't I come into the love and peace of the Lord?" and say.
Looking into me, I knew it was pride. As they looked into me, their ugly faces began to appear. I started to get annoyed when I saw the 'me I thought I wasn't', which I had been trying to ignore. My ugliness tormented me, such as the greedy me, the me who was obsessed with beautiful things without being able to accept them with gratitude. For a while, when I opened my eyes in the morning, my heart ached so much that I burst into tears without realizing it.
"Let's not run away cowardly while saying 'Lord's love, Lord's peace'. Let's see me as I am." I meditated whenever I had a chance. But on the other hand, I found myself so exhausted that I kept looking for another way to escape. "When were you not a sinner? You were originally a sinner. You, a sinner, a wounded you, he loves you as you are." And one morning when I woke up with pain, I said, "Oh, it's all by the grace of the Lord!" I was comfortable with my eyes open. At some point, I was running away from suffering. And he returned to his daily life and was living happily and thankfully as usual.
There was an incident that made it possible for me to appreciate God's love with a touching heart. In the school I teach, there are a lot of poor people and a lot of hurt people. I will introduce one of them to a friend. This dude is terribly cramped. He suffered from polio as a child, so he could not use his lower body at all without assistive devices. Only with an assistive device can you use crutches. After I meet this friend, I don't turn off the lights on the dike unless I'm completely out of school. "Professor, even from afar, it feels warm when the lights in your room are on." Because what you say is stuck in your heart.
This friend was a student in the Faculty of Social Welfare, and he entered our school after graduating from Chonbuk National University. When he first met me, he confessed that he didn't really want to live. There's no hope... I couldn't give any help, so my heart ached, but these days, I'm more moved by that friend. He graduated from our school and is pursuing a PhD in psychology at Chonbuk National University. And I'm giving a lecture on the psychology of life in our school. After lectures, they come to my room and drink tea. I would like to introduce you to the story that that friend told me.
As I listened to this friend's story, I thought about how luxurious my worries and pains are. And I was ashamed. My heart was touched by the attitude of the friend who was able to sincerely appreciate and accept life as it is, moment by moment. Let's continue this friend's story a little more.
"Professor, I have a boyfriend. I don't think about marriage because I don't have the courage. He's a really good friend. To be honest, my life has become very positive because of him. One day, my boyfriend came up with a video of me. I am a moving person. It was the first time I saw him. Even though I was wearing crutches, I was tall enough and thought that I would walk slowly and coolly. But when I saw myself in reality, I hated how much I hated seeing myself walking crookedly and crookedly. So I said to my boyfriend, 'Is this me? I really hate it.' Then he said, 'You idiot, I love you all.'"
As I was touched by this beautiful story, I remembered the heart of God, thankful that the friend had met a truly beautiful young man. The heart of God who accepts and loves me as I am. No, the heart of God, who has given himself completely to us and has nothing more to give.
Brothers and sisters, as we meditate once more on the words of the Bible, the epistle to John, where it says, "No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us." Finally, I will close today's sermon by introducing you to one of several poems that Brother Sang-don Jeong, who comes to our church, sent me by e-mail. It is a poem titled “In the beginning”.
in the beginning
In the beginning there was love.
With the breath of that love, it seeps into the soil and becomes a person
The person you liked
Temptation and sin overcame me
He lamented, and his tears swallowed up the whole land.
Even after that, people who are only guilty of
An evil voice reached the heavens,
Just as the beginning was love, the end is also love
You were there in their place of death.
Until this day, the only thing I do is sin
Always be a person of darkness
Can love be restored?
Always stop being a slave to the world
become your person
Can you stand in the place of suffering?